Dear Dr. Carl,
It seems that lately I have been rather sluggish and depressed. It's been running 3-fold. I think I have left my sanity at my keyboard. I've tried it all running and leaving, trying to occupy my time otherwise, but I always end up back at this light-bearing screen without answers. Wikihow and Google haven't given me much insight into anything, as majority are only of the possibilities. I knew it was time to turn to the professionals. My heartbeat has remained constant with the occasional flutterings that seem uncontrollable. My eyes dilate and i have had some short periods of feeling light headed. My tummy bubbles with an unreleasable laughter. My mood swings have been boiling and change constantly when i'm not depressed I am giddy; shortly after that I am enraged, which then turns into violence and frequent replacements of waterfalls where my eyes used to be. Any advice help or prescriptions would be much appreciated.
From
Meshiaah Baggs
Dearest Meshiaah,
It worries me to hear this from you, as I have witnessed the outcome of such circumstances often, and yet have not been able to declare what the ailment might be. Although prescriptions are a tad drastic all i can say is that you need to find the source of what might be causing this. I feel that the main possibilty could be confusion in your love-life; now although i could be wrong... Your symptoms clearly point towards, and are all common factors of, being in love. Your only MAJOR problem is that you feel this deep inward confusion towards it all.
Maybe you feel its too early; or that the thought that there are "so many other fish in the sea" overwhelms you; that even though you found love, how is it possible that this person is the one in comparison to people with near identical features just like them all over the world. How is it that your one in a trillion is located within a 1 hour drive?
WHAT IF your one in a trillion is away, as little as 4 hours.. or even a 15 hour plane ride? How do you know...?
This is what i have learned from others just like you, Meshiaah- and although I have no personal experiance, and the topic itself is rather touchy.. I hope you take this as you want and I hope it has given you little insight on your troubles.
Sincerly,
Dr. Carl
thestarsaresoBEAUTIFUL
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Unquenched
I'm currently sitting on my bed, as Vancity is hitting new highs for temperatures; my computer lies, it is MUCH higher than 22 degrees.
As time flies by, and I watch as the moon chases the sun, I realized that i get this weird feeling around this time each night.
The moisture in my mouth loses its fluidness as it becomes sticky under my tongue and at the back of my throat. You want to swallow, but no matter how hard you try the insufficient amount of saliva does nothing. You grab a glass of water; you need this adhesive-like material to disappear. As you guzzle back the quick, slick, arctic water the sensation of freedom comes only momentarily, as the gluey substance returns, you can't seem to find a way to satisfy this longing. No longer is this a battle to get rid of the feeling, but to experience freedom once again.
In most cases at this time I have urges to write. My feeling of "freedom" is when i stop pussyfooting around and actually start writing.
I am craving sleep right now; it isn't even that late. My conscience won't let me sleep willingly until this feeling of freedom has been achieved.
I'm not confined by my notepad nor computer; not chained to my pen or keyboard.
My subconscious is doing me one big favour. Sometimes you just need to "trust my [your] printers ink, to express the things i [you] think." (Hellogoodbye- Dear Jamie Lyrics) You always feel better knowing you are able to write or draw out whatever was on your mind because it releases tension and creative flow.
Who knows? maybe one day all those bits and pieces will complete your puzzle.
And if you need help drawing or luring those bits and pieces out... Or satisfying that "unquenched" feeling...
I'm back.
AND
I'm on Twitter/Myspace
www.twitter.com/anellafant
www.myspace.com/nellzyy
euughhww a spider.
As time flies by, and I watch as the moon chases the sun, I realized that i get this weird feeling around this time each night.
The moisture in my mouth loses its fluidness as it becomes sticky under my tongue and at the back of my throat. You want to swallow, but no matter how hard you try the insufficient amount of saliva does nothing. You grab a glass of water; you need this adhesive-like material to disappear. As you guzzle back the quick, slick, arctic water the sensation of freedom comes only momentarily, as the gluey substance returns, you can't seem to find a way to satisfy this longing. No longer is this a battle to get rid of the feeling, but to experience freedom once again.
In most cases at this time I have urges to write. My feeling of "freedom" is when i stop pussyfooting around and actually start writing.
I am craving sleep right now; it isn't even that late. My conscience won't let me sleep willingly until this feeling of freedom has been achieved.
I'm not confined by my notepad nor computer; not chained to my pen or keyboard.
My subconscious is doing me one big favour. Sometimes you just need to "trust my [your] printers ink, to express the things i [you] think." (Hellogoodbye- Dear Jamie Lyrics) You always feel better knowing you are able to write or draw out whatever was on your mind because it releases tension and creative flow.
Who knows? maybe one day all those bits and pieces will complete your puzzle.
And if you need help drawing or luring those bits and pieces out... Or satisfying that "unquenched" feeling...
I'm back.
AND
I'm on Twitter/Myspace
www.twitter.com/anellafant
www.myspace.com/nellzyy
euughhww a spider.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
A Cure to Paranoia...
Paranoia: a thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. Paranoid thinking typically includes persecutory beliefs concerning a perceived threat towards oneself. In the original Greek, παράνοια (paranoia) simply means madness (para = outside; nous = mind). Historically, this characterization was used to describe any delusional state.
There are things in life that come at you unexpectedly. With all puzzle pieces jumbled and feeling unsure, you jump to any possible conclusion, and by "any" I am not meaning the right one. Its kind of like sudoku, when you mess up the numbers, but it all looks right, but then you find out that its all wrong because you led yourself to believe that it was right.
I remember reading a Betty and Veronica comic, and it was where Veronica was talking to her dad. I specifically remember her saying "dad, you must be so fit, from ALWAYS jumping to conclusions." I don't know why it had such an impact on me, but from that point forward it made me start thinking in a more "open" way.
Nowadays, I tend to see things in the most wide spectrum, from pragmatic ideas, all the way through fantasies. Which, come to think of it, really wasn't the best thing, considering now, that more than before ANYTHING is a possible thought.
People tend to associate paranoia with fear; although paranoia is not the same as a phobia. F.E.A.R is an acronym, meaning "False Events Appearing Real" So, if we were to connect a phobia with paranoia, we might be able to solve all our problems with a logical thought process.
1. Don't be your own worst enemy.
2. Be patient.
3. Don't take things personally.
4. Think about others.
For EXAMPLE.
(due to previous.. erm, confusion... Any names used, are strictly fictional, and do NOT represent any individual ON this planet, or anywhere else.)
Person G, had not heard from his girlfriend in the day, when usually they talk 24/7. His mind begins to construct all these thoughts, that his girlfriend is not thinking of him; out having fun without him. Maybe texting someone else, or that she doesn't know how to tell him its over.. when really Person G never knew his girlfriend fell trying to catch the bus and was in hospital getting stitches.
Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too, they live inside us; sometimes they win." -Stephen King
I think we just need to try and keep the worst of our thoughts out, and try to not be so easily convinced and suede by our monsters and ghosts.
Woooshh.
There are things in life that come at you unexpectedly. With all puzzle pieces jumbled and feeling unsure, you jump to any possible conclusion, and by "any" I am not meaning the right one. Its kind of like sudoku, when you mess up the numbers, but it all looks right, but then you find out that its all wrong because you led yourself to believe that it was right.
I remember reading a Betty and Veronica comic, and it was where Veronica was talking to her dad. I specifically remember her saying "dad, you must be so fit, from ALWAYS jumping to conclusions." I don't know why it had such an impact on me, but from that point forward it made me start thinking in a more "open" way.
Nowadays, I tend to see things in the most wide spectrum, from pragmatic ideas, all the way through fantasies. Which, come to think of it, really wasn't the best thing, considering now, that more than before ANYTHING is a possible thought.
People tend to associate paranoia with fear; although paranoia is not the same as a phobia. F.E.A.R is an acronym, meaning "False Events Appearing Real" So, if we were to connect a phobia with paranoia, we might be able to solve all our problems with a logical thought process.
1. Don't be your own worst enemy.
2. Be patient.
3. Don't take things personally.
4. Think about others.
For EXAMPLE.
(due to previous.. erm, confusion... Any names used, are strictly fictional, and do NOT represent any individual ON this planet, or anywhere else.)
Person G, had not heard from his girlfriend in the day, when usually they talk 24/7. His mind begins to construct all these thoughts, that his girlfriend is not thinking of him; out having fun without him. Maybe texting someone else, or that she doesn't know how to tell him its over.. when really Person G never knew his girlfriend fell trying to catch the bus and was in hospital getting stitches.
Probably the most important rule for life: It’s not all about you. You aren't the center of the universe.
Maybe your routine is hit a snag and someone isn't paying you enough attention. You brood and brood. “Is she mad at me?” “Did I say something wrong?” Your paranoia intensifies, leaving you emotionally crippled and thinking that you have ruined everything.
Yet there may be a good reason for her inattention. But why are you freaking over it?
If this is how your mind works... you may be overly thin skinned. You will need to do some serious rethinking. You will need to learn how to think outside yourself.
Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too, they live inside us; sometimes they win." -Stephen King
I think we just need to try and keep the worst of our thoughts out, and try to not be so easily convinced and suede by our monsters and ghosts.
Woooshh.
Monday, March 9, 2009
The misconception between guys and girls...
Why is it that people are so strange about girls and guys being friends.
Why can't two people hang out with everyone assuming that they like eachother or that there is something more to the relationship OTHER than just being friends. Whether they date or not, before or after, or even if the feelings arent mutual.
First off, people tend to pre-judge people when they hang out with the opposite sex. I think its probably because everyone is used to things going like that. We all tend to subconsiously sabotage our relationships by overthinking the smalled details and then start over doing things to try and correct whatever you thought you needed to be corrected(even though it didn't) in the first place.
For example:
Person A and Person B ARE friends; But due to some rumour, Person A thinks Person B likes her, so B, to stop any confusion, begins to ignore A. A than thinks that because he is ignoring her that he actually does like her and is trying to hide after the fact.
UGH WHY ARE PEOPLE SO CONFUSING. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE THINK THAT GUYS AND GIRLS CANT BE FRIENDS.
Secondly, I’d like to point out that even after you date it is still possible to be friends. As long as you put behind all the “gushy” crap you once had, and then take a step forward and stop playing games. Your relationship ended for a reason. Its clean slate. There are no more games to play.
The reason or most common case that guys and girls have issues being friends after dating:
They tend to OVER READ the like meter.
For example.
Person C, and Person D break up and D wants to be friends. Since C is used to the usual “liking” he has experienced in the past he is still reading a bit above average on the ‘like meter’ therefore mistaking the fact that a hello is a hello, not some obsessed past girlfriend.
*an experiance, i have had to go through atleast once in my life, and im sure others aswell.*
Lastly, if one person likes another as more than a friend and the other likes them as a friend, the only issue that will arise is the same things listed above. EXACTLY the same; It’s actually a mix of the two. Someone will either mistake the others gestures and “over read” on the ‘crush-o-meter’ and begin to avoid them, or simply the other will avoid them to “throw them off”
In either case if they are throwing you off, or trying to create less confusion.
It would just make sense to move on.
**Same goes for hook-ups. They mean nothing. Unless you are SPECIFICALLY TOLD from the person themselves that they like you; you are just friends. And that’s how it is. Nothing should change.
DONT SUBCONCIOUSLY SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIPS
monkeys4lyfe.
Why can't two people hang out with everyone assuming that they like eachother or that there is something more to the relationship OTHER than just being friends. Whether they date or not, before or after, or even if the feelings arent mutual.
First off, people tend to pre-judge people when they hang out with the opposite sex. I think its probably because everyone is used to things going like that. We all tend to subconsiously sabotage our relationships by overthinking the smalled details and then start over doing things to try and correct whatever you thought you needed to be corrected(even though it didn't) in the first place.
For example:
Person A and Person B ARE friends; But due to some rumour, Person A thinks Person B likes her, so B, to stop any confusion, begins to ignore A. A than thinks that because he is ignoring her that he actually does like her and is trying to hide after the fact.
UGH WHY ARE PEOPLE SO CONFUSING. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE THINK THAT GUYS AND GIRLS CANT BE FRIENDS.
Secondly, I’d like to point out that even after you date it is still possible to be friends. As long as you put behind all the “gushy” crap you once had, and then take a step forward and stop playing games. Your relationship ended for a reason. Its clean slate. There are no more games to play.
The reason or most common case that guys and girls have issues being friends after dating:
They tend to OVER READ the like meter.
For example.
Person C, and Person D break up and D wants to be friends. Since C is used to the usual “liking” he has experienced in the past he is still reading a bit above average on the ‘like meter’ therefore mistaking the fact that a hello is a hello, not some obsessed past girlfriend.
*an experiance, i have had to go through atleast once in my life, and im sure others aswell.*
Lastly, if one person likes another as more than a friend and the other likes them as a friend, the only issue that will arise is the same things listed above. EXACTLY the same; It’s actually a mix of the two. Someone will either mistake the others gestures and “over read” on the ‘crush-o-meter’ and begin to avoid them, or simply the other will avoid them to “throw them off”
In either case if they are throwing you off, or trying to create less confusion.
It would just make sense to move on.
**Same goes for hook-ups. They mean nothing. Unless you are SPECIFICALLY TOLD from the person themselves that they like you; you are just friends. And that’s how it is. Nothing should change.
DONT SUBCONCIOUSLY SABOTAGE YOUR FRIENDSHIPS
monkeys4lyfe.
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